NEW NEWS IS NOT NEW

this week i have heard so much more than i have ever listened to.

the family in Cheshire CT murdered, the father beaten survived
the students in Newark NJ executed, shot and stabbed, one survived
a tornado grows in brooklyn, climate's change
student murdered in Manhattan NY, killer/boyfriend tried to kill himself
mississippi morns
here comes another flash flood NY
still there is more
and its the this surrealist horror that keeps me thinking about the shoes that protect the feet that pressed the gas pedal - of the mom who accidently ran over her child in Long Island NY
She was moving her car and didnt see the toddler until she parked it, right under the passenger wheel stayed the young son. her terrified shriek still haunts them - said neighbors.

i can not get over the pain abominable and eternal heartache she will endure.
i wonder if she has another child and a husband and how those relationships continue to grow under such pressure and imagined guilt.
damn it, i think applies.

everyday i imagine a non-fiction book is published, a movie scripted or advertised the wonderful continuum of our american murderous magic. all these aforementioned events have weighed heavy on me this week as i traversed NY and NJ from the saftey of an air- conditioned toyota. i have not been apart of the heat's maelstrom from corner to corner, side walk to side walk, all life in the streets. Shit it would almost be In Cold Blood, again located in Cheshire, no?

well here is something most horror show, the same day i heard of the said Long Island events, in Harlem I drove by this doll stranded on the side of the rode... fucking bonkers- such cosmic and dark coincidence